What is right and what is wrong ? who decides ?
me, you, the government or may be God.
all day i was being hit by disappointments one after another ,but that day had quite an unusual ending for me.
i ended up around 11 pm sitting in one of the few night clubs in Alexandria with friends (some of them i’ve never seen before) with everybody drinking and dancing.
but i wasn’t drinking nor dancing .
i wasn’t dancing simply because i can’t (i’ve never been in a nightclub before) .
and i wasn’t drinking because i can’t decide if it’s a good move or not.
see. . i was raised in an ordinary middle class Egyptian family .
one the does every thing that other ppl do simply because other ppl do it .
and because of this I inherited values and religious rules that is too hard to break .
yet i’m not the kind of devoted worshipers who practically live in mosques.
actually i visit the mosque only once a week every Friday and i might pray once or twice at home during the entire week.
yet still somethings can’t be broke.
i do suffer from a very dull life which i tried to escape over the year in the cyber space ,but that proved to be a failure and a very dull typical group of friends who never get tired of doing the same things every day for years now .
the night life seems fun .. it is fun ,BUT it comes with cost .
if i to blind in a community i have to play with it’s rules not mine .
yet i can’t decide .
i’m some how neutral to life ,refusing to be driven in any way what so ever and that leads to not experiencing anything at all !
i’m confused .
can’t decide or make a move in anything .
restrained by a set of morals or even rules that i’ve created for my self without having the courage to break it or even obeying it .
Humans by nature don’t do what they think it’s right ,they do what makes them happy .