Success, Hapiness and Sadness

SUCCESS

I PASSED my first term exams 😀 ,just got my results this morning .

I was happy then ,very happy… success has the sweetest taste ever .

i didn’t expect to pass ,but i did .

i feel relieved ,very relieved .

but, by the end of the day the normal sadness returned .

SADNESS

  • I thought a lot about the reasons why I’m always sad and i came up with those :
  1. I have no big target in my life ,at all .
    • I don’t know what i want or what i should be doing .
    • i hate my studying field ,although it’s not bad and has a great future ,but i just don’t like it .
    • I lost all my old plans for future and can’t come up with new stuff .
  2. No female presence .
    • yope ,that’s right.. i don’t have a girlfriend and never had .. why?
    • simply because I have this thing about not being able to do useless stuff .
    • stuff that i can see clearly that it won’t work due to practical reasons and will cause a huge amount of pain to end .
    • also that I think that human emotions are something very dangerous to play with or take lightly.
    • yet again how do I know that if I’ve never tried ?
    • this also causing me a really bad case of loneliness that I’m unable to escape.
  3. Low self-confidence
    • my self-confidence is slightly shaken by past experiences and I have no idea how to restore it.
  4. other than those stuff my life is almost perfect ,I’ve no BIG BIG problems … nothing
  5. yes … nothing …. nothing is the problem itself .. a huge pile of nothing in both my heart and mind .

sadness

Photo by Paul Armstrong

one thing always made me feel good : singing as loud as i can in my car while driving ..ppl think i’m nuts 😀

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Yet another year 2008

2007 is Finally over .. god i really hated this year .

it was just .. BIG and full of all kinds of bad news .

But it passed and a new one to come with a little hope of being better than the last one.

i’ll tell you a secret .. this is my 4th blog .. yope 4th 😀

I’ve been blogging for about 2 years and 4 months now ,not continuously though .

all in all .. i had 70.000+ visits, 400+ posts and 700+ comments .

although i really don’t care about statistics ,but it’s always nice to know that there is actually ppl who think that you write something worth wasting time on .

why do i change blogs ? i get bored easily PLUS when ppl know you real identity it pretty much decrease the margin of freedom that you created the blog to enjoy in the first place.

ok here is the time for 2008 resolutions :

  1. Pass this year in college (exams in 2 weeks ).
  2. Learn German (already started).
  3. Learn Diving (first thing in summer).
  4. Get a nice girl friend lol
  5. get my license (very soon)
  6. reorganize my social life ( have no idea how)
  7. get an Apple Macbook.( i’m praying for one)
  8. Pass the LPI first level
  9. hmmm can’t remember anything else right now .

i hope i’ll be able to do those things or even half of them .

just to end up the post with something funny .

The Bizo Award for the (what’s the word for Afshakh in English :D) Internet use in the Arab world .

you can see an interview with one of the runner ups ( User:Ahmed basyouni) in here .

it’s seriously hilarious folks 😀 .